I am a working woman now

I have yet again joined the workforce after more than a year and a half of unemployment. Today is the last day of my first week as a working woman again. I am tired as I am not used to having such long days but at the same time I am very happy as it feels good to be useful again.

My job is as an administrative assistant in an office and I have found that I am underpaid but I suppose I can always negotiate to have that changed for the better if I get employment extending the three month contract I got. To make up for it though I was given one of the largest rooms in the office so I have plenty of space and I have a pretty cute guy who visits me twice daily as he keeps some of his belongings in here. Some eyecandy is always nice.

Right now it's 4:10 in the afternoon and soon I can pack up my stuff and go home. It was not a very productive day today. We have a problem with the program we use for the job placements so I am currently locked out of it and I have no other tasks for backup so what better way to spend the afternoon than to blog a little about my day.

I'm not really looking forward to my trip home because the weather outside is rainy and cold, however I took the bus into town today so at least I won't get too wet on my way home. Wednesdays is usually my day to join with my sangha for some meditation but I have not been there for weeks now and I doubt I will go tonight. I much rather go home and make myself a nice cup of tea in the new English teapot that I got from the International market at my lunch hour.

Now to pay a visit to my union website to cancel my membership there so I can join the union that represents this workplace so they can help me bring my wage up to a decent level. Unfortunately the local government here in town are notorious for doing this to people.

letter to someone I love - March prompt

Dear Chris

I feel I have to write you this letter after our conversation earlier today. I want to encourage you to write a journal documenting your every day life. Firstly I think it will help you see your own progress in the goals you said you are going to set for yourself in losing weight and to pick up your hobbies again.

I believe it may also help you create that understanding you want from your children in order to get a more serene and happy home like your sister has.

I'm picturing this journal as an open blog to them where you share what you feel comfortable sharing with them about your feelings and emotions as well as concerns you have not just for yourself and your own health but also for them and your grandkids. I think it will fit right in with that unclogging of space that you were talking about.

My hope for this journal is that they will get a better understanding for you and the situation you are in. After all we both know kids don't listen to their parents but it seems reading is something everyone can and will do considering how they are on facebook etc.

I'm writing you this letter because I am as concerned as you are and I do love and care for all of you. Best of luck and take care, till next time sweetie

Love

Lena

Playing catch up

I know March is over and we're now a few days into April but I still have 2 March prompts left to write about and my challenge for myself this month is to get some routines going in my life now I have a job that will start soon. This means my lazy days of sleeping in, watching lots of TV and generally postpone everything I haven't felt like doing....or didn't take the time to do because I was too busy with other more or less meaningless things...in between the necessary have to do's like applying for jobs, take on courses and all such fun they demand in order to pay out the unemployment money. Therefore I do want to take on these prompts as well as the new April ones and to try and get a routine of writing at least something, if not every day so at least a few times per week.

I'm a muse. Well I'm not sure if I really am but at least a couple of my friends tell me I am inspiring to them but I have never asked them in what ways. However maybe I can try convince them to start writing. Actually one of them already is. She is writing fan fiction mixed with a bit of reality as a way of dealing with her problems and to get through every day life. I just know that I am not her muse, her big number one love and idol is and I think that is great. Whatever floats your boat they say and I think that is a statement that rings true in so many ways.

My other friend however is not dealing very well with everything that is eating her so I have tried in different ways to help her feel better. Only during our last conversation I told her to bring out a pad and a pen to start writing. The 'homework' I gave her was to find 3 positive things every day to write down on this pad. I intend to give her a call tomorrow night after she has spent Easter with her family and hopefully feel a bit better to hear how she is going. It will be interesting to hear if she has found any positive things to write about.

How will I continue this journey with her? Well the natural next step I suppose would be that I tell her about my own writing and how I am blogging as well as ever so often opening up a word document to write down thoughts that are threatening to destroy a good night sleep. I also write a bit of fan fiction at times. I believe fantasy is healthy and when reality feels too tough why not escape to fantasy land for a while.

In order to keep my friends separated here I guess I will have to name friend 1 Jonna and friend 2 Annie. It's not their real names but they might not approve of my talking about them so to protect their identities I feel this is for the best. Jonna, who is already writing, has been a muse to me a few times for little stories I have shared with her and I have also given her some tips that in fantasy land she is allowed to be anyone and anything she wants to be. It doesn't have to be set in reality. I have encouraged her to set her mind free to soar and I can feel deep in my heart that she will put that to good use and continue writing.

Annie I have inspired in other ways. She loves working with her hands and when we get together we bead, knit and crochet together, which are also important tools for someone to be kind to themselves and to feel good. Is it enough, apparently not since she is still carrying so much negativity around with her every day. Thanks to this prompt I have been inspired to try and get her to write now as hopefully it'll be a great tool for her to move on forward to feeling better and have more energy.

So to sum this 'scattered' blog up I have just answered that I am a muse even though I don't really see myself as one. I guess you could say I am the quiet accomplish (which is what also landed me my job) who help and inspire without really taking any credit. I just treat people the way I want them to treat me and most of all I want my friends and family to feel good and be happy. That is my inspiration every day.